the inner work

How I Manage My Off Days

One thing I’ve learned about myself this past year is that I am all about systems. I’ve learned that creating systems, whether it’s about my nutrition, my fitness, my oral health, my business tasks, etc — ..is ideal for…

the inner work

the strangeness of leaving chaos for stability

My name is Amanda and I actively am working on an addiction to chaos. To suffering. To negativity. & this is how I found out; To be completely transparent, I have a lot of second hand experience witnessing substance…

Relationships During Recovery

When Paranoia Keeps You Stuck

A couple months ago, I surveyed a FB group of over 20,000 about what they battle with the most, now as adult, after experiencing Narcissistic Abuse as a child. While there were hundreds of responses, there’s one in particular…

How I Went from Vogue to Eckhart Tolle

My Struggle With Duality

Stillness or movement. Darkness or light. Rootedness or flow. Stability or adventure. Certain or child-like. Safety or freedom. Success or happiness. Masculine or feminine.   For so long, I only believed I could identify with half of that list.…

the inner work

How I Dealt with the Lack of Acknowledgement

Acknowledgement.   It’s such an impactful exchange. It’s what we all want, right? To be seen. To be recognized for our efforts. For our concerns to be heard, for our moments of achievement to be witnessed and shared.  …