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Relationships During Recovery

Outgrowing Friendships After Growth

I have a lot to say on this subject. It’s not an easy realization to come to and it’s just as difficult to communicate it to those you care about. In short, friendships matter a lot to me. Without a solid family unit growing up, friendships have become my chosen version of family. And I’ve worked very hard at being good at maintaining them.   Luckily I enjoy being a friend as I am naturally a very loyal and involved…

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Relationships During Recovery

when your family can’t or doesn’t understand

What do you do when your brother, sister, grandma, aunt or cousin – are unable to understand your struggle? Are unable to fully see you in your pain and understand the reasons behind your decisions? The reasons why you may have chosen to go no contact with your parent? What do you do when those assumingly important people tell you, ‘but it’s your mom!’ OR ‘Come on, he/she is getting older, …you’re going to regret this!’ ‘She had a rough…

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How I Went from Vogue to Eckhart Tolle Relationships During Recovery

2018 has been huge for me

I started off the year in a lot of pain. I actually remember crying to my sister on my living room floor on January 1st. I was carrying so much weight and felt so alone in doing so. It truly felt like everything was finally crashing down on me , .. Even though it took weeks after that day to really see a difference, I remember saying to myself, ‘something needs to change.’  I honestly had no idea what it…

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Relationships During Recovery

What happened when I took 6 months off of social media

Last year, in May 2017 – I went through a really intense break up with a man who I thought was my forever. Towards the end, things were consistently falling apart in his personal life and while I was doing well working on being supportive without being co-dependent, –it was the coping mechanisms he chose that were reckless and he refused to acknowledge the pain and struggle he kept putting our relationship and his family through. The decision to say…

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Relationships During Recovery

When Paranoia Keeps You Stuck

A couple months ago, I surveyed a FB group of over 20,000 about what they battle with the most, now as adult, after experiencing Narcissistic Abuse as a child. While there were hundreds of responses, there’s one in particular that I want to talk about today.   Paranoia.   ‘I’m paranoid that everyone hates me.’ ‘The paranoia that everyone is plotting against me’ ‘The paranoia that this person doesn’t actually like me and is going to want to change who…

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Because we all want to know we are not alone.

One of my first memories with my maternal grandma is her helping me memorize words for an upcoming spelling test. We lived in apartment building, my mom, siblings and I upstairs on one floor and my grandma and my disabled aunt, on the one below. She was always present in the morning and she was always there when we would get home from school. She would make us PB & Butter sandwiches and let us watch TRL.   I found…

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Relationships During Recovery

How My Recovery From Emotional Abuse, Helped Me Love then Leave the Biggest Yes of My Life

When I first met M, I could barely see him. I was weeks’ shy of being exposed to numerous red flags I had ignored in a previous dynamic. A dynamic with a male who loved me enough for the both of us. A male who was everything every other man I had been involved with, wasn’t. He was kind, attentive, consistent, and easy. And if you know anything about my childhood, you would know that he was the father figure…

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